A constant chronicler, my harddrive holds seven years of photographs. I had a hard time finding photos of me by me in 2004 and 2005. Ones that exist are mostly of my body and clothing, but rarely of my face. In my adolescence, I strongly identified as a photographer. I had a personal website and a livejournal for my friends, where I posted most of my photos from 2001 to 2005.
In 2006, my photography of myself changed with the acquisition of a Facebook account. These angle specific face shots dominated 2006 to 2009 at the height of my Facebook usage.
In 2010, when started this blog and deleted my Facebook account permanently, I became more interested in photos that showed my face and body including my outfits and makeup.
Onto the Questions!
Since you started blogging has your image of yourself changed?
Blogging in all ways, shapes and forms has affected the way I see myself. I started my first website in 2000. I’ve had LiveJournal for ten years. I started this blog about seven months ago. I can’t imagine how I would see myself without the existence of the internet.
Are you self-conscious about any aspect of yourself? If so, do you go out of your way to avoid it or do you post it/talk about it anyway?
Oh definitely! If we’re talking appearance only, there’s many traits I would alter about myself. Don’t most people feel that way?
On a deeper level, I do not try to hide parts of my personality on this blog. However, there are definitely times when I hold back certain political and cultural beliefs in favor of keeping friends. I do have a private blog where I express strong thoughts and opinions freely but would find it difficult to do publicly in a forum without much context to a new reader.
Based on how you are feeling now, what do you think the future holds in the evolution of your body image?
I encourage people to accept themselves and not care about size of what makeup they wear. Yet, I worry about those things daily. Can I lose the last 5 pounds? Do I really need new eyeshadow to feel pretty? Who cares! is how I feel sometimes. I hope my body image will eventually evolve to catch up with my self confidence. Sometimes my words have to work hard to convince my thoughts.
Do you photograph yourself for your blog? If so, how do you feel about the experience when you’re having your picture taken?
I take photos of me for my blog and also use photos of myself that either I or someone else has taken in the past. There are definitely times when I feel frustrated that I don’t look a certain way or photograph how I see myself in the mirror or in my head. Then there’s times when I find myself pretty in a way I’ve never noticed before, which overpowers feelings of negativity.
What would you want every person who struggles with body image to take to heart?
The best advice I can give is to do something you’re passionate about that doesn’t encourage you to focus negative energy on yourself. Fill your life with meaningful activities that aren’t all about you. Find friends who support you and don’t bring you down. Make your life busy and filled with love so when you are feeling down, you have support.
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